More recent events include a long time friend getting married this weekend (I will now be the remaining single person in this group of friends - we met in our graduate jobs), another close friend moving interstate and another dear friend returning to her homeland in Ireland.
I'm a bit sad moreso about the friends leaving. But I've also been struggling lately with being single and where I'm at spiritually. But at the same time feeling numb...The numbness makes time pass quite quickly. Does that make sense?!
Each week seems the same. And I seem to be consistently tired.
But I'm not unhappy. Perhaps not content.
A friend who doesn't even know me that well said something quite poignant to me last week. She mentioned I might need to let go of something I've been holding onto to free my heart up for (a man - in relation to my singleness)....But it made me think my heart has been caught up elsewhere instead of in God. The numbness doesn't help though! Selective numbness.... : )
But I can give thanks and praise tonight for:
- Dear friends - whether near or far.
- God's working in my friend C's life and the provision of a husband who has the same purpose as her.
- Despite my tiredness, I still have energy to do things I need or want. Eg. so tired today but still managed to go for a run, do a load of washing, cook 3 meals, talk to a friend on whatsapp (whilst stretching post run) and sit down with a cup of tea and write this post.
Tomorrow is a new day, praying that the Father would pleasantly surprise me in His purpose for me, even if in the smallest way.
Goodnight!
No comments:
Post a Comment