What brings you to your knees?

I've returned home to an unexpected trial. Reading back on an entry I wrote in Vancouver it reminded me of something I wrote when I opened up my heart to God:

Breaking me in every part where you know I may hear You

So that I may surrender to You & seek You, willingly or not.

You long for me to realise your fullness of grace &

accept my weaknesses & failings, but know that I am loved.

Down to the bareness of my bones, chipping at the hardness of my heart

Gently but persistently asking me to relent & let go, so that my life is caught up in You & not life's worries.

Calling me to turn to you here and now, instead of longing for the 'to be' with you in Heaven....

There was more to what I wrote, almost like a psalm.

'Down to the bareness of my bones'....It's funny how sometimes you think there is nothing left to give, then something else comes along.

I've felt like I'm going insane at times and then feel guilty that I've not been more in control of my mind and emotions. A reminder that we are not perfect - we are in fact human.

Trying to hold onto God's sovereignty & that He is in control - there is freedom and peace in that.

'There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under the heavens:...' (Ecclesiastes 3:1)